Honestly, everytime I sit down to journal about our trip, I never know where to begin. So I guess we'll just have to start at the beginning. Kirby has been apart of Young Life at A&M Consol. High School for the past four years. This last year (our first year of marriage) Kirby and I sat in on the Senior Leaders meetings every Monday night. Kirby was able to focus on a few key girls and keep relations with others not in the leaders group, while I was blessed to watch my wife's beautiful heart in action and, also, partake in some much needed reviving and encouragement of my own heart through the lessons and fellowship with the kids.
This year's group of 10 seniors (7 girls,3 guys) was amazing! Never, never have I seen such humility and honest, real desire for the Lord. There were times they would fail or religiosity would get in the way. But to see how quickly and vulnerably and unashamedly these guys and girls would confess that to the group and repent was incredible. The growth we witnessed over the last year was phenominal and was only evidence of the Lord's work through 4 years of seed planting by some faithful leaders.
Since this was such a stand-out group, a mission trip was created that they might have one more chance to minister and put into action the things they had learned and experienced through out the semester and we were invited to go along. Here's where it began for me for sure and Kirby might chime in as well.
A struggle of mine had been how to know what God wanted us to do. We went through the Experiencing God class at our church and had very throughly covered this question. Henry Blackaby explains very well that the problem is we always want to know "what is God's will for me?" instead of "what is God's will?" (As I write this, I am realizing how much I have even struggled with the very question even these past few days--ha--praise the Lord!) I was so sure that Kirby was suppose to go and finish what God had started with her, but I really stuggled if I should go. I wasn't sure what my part was in this group, but Kirby had made it clear that she was not going away to anywhere for 10 days without me. So, we were both in or both out.
I wrestled with this. I just had been hired on full-time with my company and didn't want to ask for more than one weeks vacation time already. My bosses are generous Christian men and I knew, most likely, that they would say "Yes" whether they could afford it or not, so I did not want to take advantage of them. I prayed (a little) and tried to seek some wise counsel. All I knew was that Kirby needed to go and I couldn't keep her from it.
Money. Finances are such a weakness of mine. We had to raise support...and there were two of us. How were we going to raise so much money? I wrestled more and more.
We knew from all the advice that we were given, the class that we were in, and our time in prayer that all we had left in this decision was FAITH. We had to take a step and if we were to go, the Lord would provide. If not, He would not. (I waivered through this whole process.)
Well, the money had come in pretty quick from some faithful friends/family at first. But, the week before we had to have all of it in, we were sitting $1500 short. We got serious again, for we had lightened up on our prayers a bit when the money started coming in. So, all we could do was ASK. We asked the Lord to prvide this amount in one week. In 5 days, we had all of the money commited to us and by that 7th day we were paid in full! Praise the Lord! We could not have gone if just one of the faithful people in our lives had not given their money. God provided so well!
Of course, we knew without a doubt that we were suppose to go to Costa Rica (yeah, sorry, I still waivered until the day we left...God and I are straight though, don't worry).
And so began an experience and lesson in FAITH that we will not forget...